Ever have one of those days?
Apr. 1st, 2009 08:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
camper4lyfeOne of those days when you just want to go back to bed and start over? Not because anything bad happened, but because it seems like you missed something, and just feel off. Perhaps I forgot to screw my head on this morning, I don't know, but at this point there's not enough coffee in the world. That and anything more than one cup, or maybe two cups, of coffee will send me into a fit of shakes that would make a....well, I don't know who/what would be jealous of that.
I digress.
I haven't posted in quite a long time, and most definitely haven't posted anything of significant merit. Maybe I'll get lucky this time around.
The house is coming along pretty well. We haven't done a lot of work on it since we moved in, but we're still working on getting settled. That'll all come with time. It still hasn't completely hit me that this is OUR house, and we're not renting it from someone (or our parents), and we can do whatever we want to it.
We're planning on putting in a small patio in our back yard, and "edging" the driveway so that my truck will quit tearing up the grass. The patio will serve as a home for the grill, and a place to sit, under the tree and out of the sun. We're still not entirely sure on what to use in terms of materials, whether we want to do pavers, bricks, or DIY walkway cement "stones". Most of that decision will be made on the price of materials.
Things are crazy for me in the life category. As you know, my sister's pregnant with twins, and I'm having a hard time dealing with this. It's not so much the twins part as it is the fact that she's pregnant in general. And top it off with the fact that it was "planned", has me really on edge. See, my sister works full-time as a social worker while my brother-in-law is going to school full-time and working part-time. That right there is my problem. They can't financially handle having one kid, let alone two! So what in the hell were they thinking in TRYING to have a kid?! I mean seriously.
My sister knows how I feel about this stuff, yet hasn't approached me about it. Instead, she goes to my mother to talk about it, which brings my mother to talk to me in her "censored" way. I'm getting sick of it, and will be calling my sister in the next couple of days. My mother knows this, and has "warned" my sister about my plans, to which my sister responded, "I know how he feels, and I don't want to talk about the negative stuff." Well sorry kiddo, I need to be negative, and get this crap off my chest before I can even attempt to be positive about it. She's due in October. My wedding's in July. With her being pregnant with twins, it's entirely possible that she won't be able to even be at the wedding, which is probably my biggest problem right now. BUT, I feel like I have to bite my tongue, and censor what I say because I don't want to upset my sister, because god forbid anything happen to the babies afterward...lord knows it'd somehow be my fault (she's already lost one baby...so that just makes all of this worse).
In general, I'm dealing with a lot. It's cutting into my sleep, both in quantity and quality, which is only making things worse, and causing it to just snowball. I just need to to do something to get the ball to stop rolling.
I digress.
I haven't posted in quite a long time, and most definitely haven't posted anything of significant merit. Maybe I'll get lucky this time around.
The house is coming along pretty well. We haven't done a lot of work on it since we moved in, but we're still working on getting settled. That'll all come with time. It still hasn't completely hit me that this is OUR house, and we're not renting it from someone (or our parents), and we can do whatever we want to it.
We're planning on putting in a small patio in our back yard, and "edging" the driveway so that my truck will quit tearing up the grass. The patio will serve as a home for the grill, and a place to sit, under the tree and out of the sun. We're still not entirely sure on what to use in terms of materials, whether we want to do pavers, bricks, or DIY walkway cement "stones". Most of that decision will be made on the price of materials.
Things are crazy for me in the life category. As you know, my sister's pregnant with twins, and I'm having a hard time dealing with this. It's not so much the twins part as it is the fact that she's pregnant in general. And top it off with the fact that it was "planned", has me really on edge. See, my sister works full-time as a social worker while my brother-in-law is going to school full-time and working part-time. That right there is my problem. They can't financially handle having one kid, let alone two! So what in the hell were they thinking in TRYING to have a kid?! I mean seriously.
My sister knows how I feel about this stuff, yet hasn't approached me about it. Instead, she goes to my mother to talk about it, which brings my mother to talk to me in her "censored" way. I'm getting sick of it, and will be calling my sister in the next couple of days. My mother knows this, and has "warned" my sister about my plans, to which my sister responded, "I know how he feels, and I don't want to talk about the negative stuff." Well sorry kiddo, I need to be negative, and get this crap off my chest before I can even attempt to be positive about it. She's due in October. My wedding's in July. With her being pregnant with twins, it's entirely possible that she won't be able to even be at the wedding, which is probably my biggest problem right now. BUT, I feel like I have to bite my tongue, and censor what I say because I don't want to upset my sister, because god forbid anything happen to the babies afterward...lord knows it'd somehow be my fault (she's already lost one baby...so that just makes all of this worse).
In general, I'm dealing with a lot. It's cutting into my sleep, both in quantity and quality, which is only making things worse, and causing it to just snowball. I just need to to do something to get the ball to stop rolling.
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Date: 2009-04-01 09:22 pm (UTC)Well, the sister thing, you know she's stubborn and going to do what she wants no matter what. I agree with you that it's pretty irresponsible to attempt to have a family when the financial/time situation is so out of control. Perhaps they're worried that if they don't go through with this pregnancy that future pregnancies will have complications? It's not much, but it's something. YOu do have to get your feelings off your chest, and it's family, everything will get sorted out in the end. I wish you the best f luck with it.
In the meantime, YOU HAVE A HOUSE!!!! Fixing things up will take the rest of your lives, but it will always grow and change, and that's something to look forward to. I'm totally jealous. :)
Sending all my best your way, my friend.