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[camper4lyfe]

I'm absolutely exhausted today.

My stomach's been all sorts of funky since last night, though I took the risk to go to Red Robin for lunch. my god, I'd shove a naked woman out of the way to get one of their burgers. YUM. Stomach seems fine so far.

On another note, I'm noticing a problem I have lately.

I seem to have a really difficult time letting go of the past.

1. 
   I try to contact people from high school for various reasons (sometimes I don't know WHAT the reason is).
   


2. 
   I can't help but think in the back of my mind that Paula never actually died. I walk around Fairport fully expecting to walk around a corner and see her standing there (yes, I know she's gone, but I just can't bring myself to BELIEVE it yet)
   


3. 
   I still get pissed off over stuff that happened back in college.
   

I don't why I do this. Maybe it's a lack of closure? Maybe it's something I resent and just don't know it yet...I don't know. Either way, it's really starting to wear on my lately.

I really don't know what to do about this stuff.

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[belleaire.livejournal.com]

I'd be pretty unhappy if the past kept boiling up like that. Has something happened to bring all this back into the present for you? Have you thought about visiting a counselor for a fresh perspective? You don't, of course, have to answer either of those questions...