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Jul. 16th, 2001
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Jul. 16th, 2001 01:02 pmWhy is it that whenever I have something good going for me, something happens and pull sthe rug our from underneath me?
This is more than I think I can handle.
Last night, or techinically this morning, at 1:05 AM the love of my life passed away in a car accident. She was going home from the concert that we both attended and fell asleep at the wheel. She crossed the median and struck a tree. As bad as it sounds, I hope she passed on impact.
So many questions running through my head.
Could I have done anythin differently?
Was there anything I could have done?
Why didn't I get on her case about not wearing her seatbelt?
What if I had called her?
What if I had talked to her until she got home?
What should I say to her parents?
When would be a good time to ask for a picture and the little stuffed puppies I won her yesterday?
IS there a good time?
How do I ask them?
I DON'T want to start dating again!
I thought I woulnd't have to do it anymore.
THIS BLOWS!
IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is more than I think I can handle.
Last night, or techinically this morning, at 1:05 AM the love of my life passed away in a car accident. She was going home from the concert that we both attended and fell asleep at the wheel. She crossed the median and struck a tree. As bad as it sounds, I hope she passed on impact.
So many questions running through my head.
Could I have done anythin differently?
Was there anything I could have done?
Why didn't I get on her case about not wearing her seatbelt?
What if I had called her?
What if I had talked to her until she got home?
What should I say to her parents?
When would be a good time to ask for a picture and the little stuffed puppies I won her yesterday?
IS there a good time?
How do I ask them?
I DON'T want to start dating again!
I thought I woulnd't have to do it anymore.
THIS BLOWS!
IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!!!
Jul. 16th, 2001 01:18 pmWHY?!?!?!
MOTHER FUCKER!
GODDAMN COCK SUCKER!
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?
As soon as I'm happy you come along and FUCK me!
For once in my life I was truly happy and you take the one good thing that I've got away from me.
I'm doin gmy best not to blame myself
There are so many things I could have done.
This is NOT one of those situations where I say it's in the past and move on. NO WAY IN HELL
Why didn't I keep her on the phone until she got home?
Why didn't I get on her case about not wearing a seatbelt.
Why HER?!
Why ME?!
When should I ask her about a picture and the two little stuffed puppies I won for her yseterday?
How should I ask?
What should I say when I talk to them?
What should I say when I see them?
WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME???????????
MOTHERFUCKER!
MOTHER FUCKER!
GODDAMN COCK SUCKER!
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?
As soon as I'm happy you come along and FUCK me!
For once in my life I was truly happy and you take the one good thing that I've got away from me.
I'm doin gmy best not to blame myself
There are so many things I could have done.
This is NOT one of those situations where I say it's in the past and move on. NO WAY IN HELL
Why didn't I keep her on the phone until she got home?
Why didn't I get on her case about not wearing a seatbelt.
Why HER?!
Why ME?!
When should I ask her about a picture and the two little stuffed puppies I won for her yseterday?
How should I ask?
What should I say when I talk to them?
What should I say when I see them?
WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME???????????
MOTHERFUCKER!
IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR!!!!!!
Jul. 16th, 2001 01:18 pmWHY?!?!?!
MOTHER FUCKER!
GODDAMN COCK SUCKER!
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?
As soon as I'm happy you come along and FUCK me!
For once in my life I was truly happy and you take the one good thing that I've got away from me.
I'm doin gmy best not to blame myself
There are so many things I could have done.
This is NOT one of those situations where I say it's in the past and move on. NO WAY IN HELL
Why didn't I keep her on the phone until she got home?
Why didn't I get on her case about not wearing a seatbelt.
Why HER?!
Why ME?!
When should I ask her about a picture and the two little stuffed puppies I won for her yseterday?
How should I ask?
What should I say when I talk to them?
What should I say when I see them?
WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME???????????
MOTHERFUCKER!
MOTHER FUCKER!
GODDAMN COCK SUCKER!
WHY THE FUCK DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?
As soon as I'm happy you come along and FUCK me!
For once in my life I was truly happy and you take the one good thing that I've got away from me.
I'm doin gmy best not to blame myself
There are so many things I could have done.
This is NOT one of those situations where I say it's in the past and move on. NO WAY IN HELL
Why didn't I keep her on the phone until she got home?
Why didn't I get on her case about not wearing a seatbelt.
Why HER?!
Why ME?!
When should I ask her about a picture and the two little stuffed puppies I won for her yseterday?
How should I ask?
What should I say when I talk to them?
What should I say when I see them?
WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN TO ME???????????
MOTHERFUCKER!
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Jul. 16th, 2001 01:37 pmUpdate
I got the guts up to call her parents.
However good it may be, it was an instananeous death.
Air bag did deploy.
Guess the way the truck hit the tree, her head ended up hitting the dash board.
I think it all boils down to the fact that she wasn't wearing her seatbelt.
Will hear more from her parents later.
I got the guts up to call her parents.
However good it may be, it was an instananeous death.
Air bag did deploy.
Guess the way the truck hit the tree, her head ended up hitting the dash board.
I think it all boils down to the fact that she wasn't wearing her seatbelt.
Will hear more from her parents later.
